i feel like winter is always too long. after the first pretty snow, i’m ready to be done with it. the sun doesn’t shine enough, and the days don’t last long enough.
when i was in high school i used to think that i really liked the dark at nighttime. as i’ve continued to get older i’ve come to like the light more. darkness is for hiding and secrets, coldness, and lies. basically to me darkness is bondage more than anything. i think that’s why the short, cold winter days have gotten so difficult for me. i prefer the joy of long, warm days, so that when nighttime comes i feel that i have gotten my full share of sunlight and life. i can be outside without being miserable and just wishing to be warm again. nature is more alive. granted, i don’t think i would want to live in those places where the sun shines 24/7, because that would be exhausting too.
i know this is about more than the cycles of the sun, and of daytime versus nighttime. I’ve always been a sensitive person, and i don’t mean that i have a tendency to cry (although i do—little known fact to those who don’t know me well). what i more mean is that i can sense things about places and people around me. the older i get, the even more aware i become of things. light and dark are one of those pairs that i have grown especially sensitive toward, and i know that there is something spiritual about this.
we were intended for freedom and light. i love honesty and openness because it brings things into the light and tears us out of the bondage of darkness. i would rather not say anything than have to lie. and that’s why i love springtime and summer. i think it brings new life, new hope, and new possibilities.
until then, i’m going to do what i can to bring my own light and warmth. i’ll stay close to those i love, and not let the burden of darkness overcome me like it has in the past. tanning once a week won’t hurt either. =-).
when i was in high school i used to think that i really liked the dark at nighttime. as i’ve continued to get older i’ve come to like the light more. darkness is for hiding and secrets, coldness, and lies. basically to me darkness is bondage more than anything. i think that’s why the short, cold winter days have gotten so difficult for me. i prefer the joy of long, warm days, so that when nighttime comes i feel that i have gotten my full share of sunlight and life. i can be outside without being miserable and just wishing to be warm again. nature is more alive. granted, i don’t think i would want to live in those places where the sun shines 24/7, because that would be exhausting too.
i know this is about more than the cycles of the sun, and of daytime versus nighttime. I’ve always been a sensitive person, and i don’t mean that i have a tendency to cry (although i do—little known fact to those who don’t know me well). what i more mean is that i can sense things about places and people around me. the older i get, the even more aware i become of things. light and dark are one of those pairs that i have grown especially sensitive toward, and i know that there is something spiritual about this.
we were intended for freedom and light. i love honesty and openness because it brings things into the light and tears us out of the bondage of darkness. i would rather not say anything than have to lie. and that’s why i love springtime and summer. i think it brings new life, new hope, and new possibilities.
until then, i’m going to do what i can to bring my own light and warmth. i’ll stay close to those i love, and not let the burden of darkness overcome me like it has in the past. tanning once a week won’t hurt either. =-).
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